One day during Sarah Nowels’s senior year of high school, her boyfriend offered her what looked like a prescription painkiller. Sarah had taken drugs recreationally before, so she thought she knew what to expect. In fact, that one pill was about to throw her life into chaos. “I had no idea how serious things were about to get,” Sarah says.
As soon as she took the pill, Sarah, who experiences anxiety and depression, immediately felt different. Her thoughts quieted down and her brain became numb. She loved the feeling and began regularly taking the pills with her boyfriend. At first, Sarah didn’t know they were laced with fentanyl, a highly addictive—and often deadly—opioid. By the time she found out, she was addicted. “People think, ‘Oh, it takes a while before things get really bad,’ but that is not the case,” she says. “Addiction can happen really, really quickly.”
Sarah began by taking 10 pills a day, but she soon needed more to get the same effect. If she didn’t take fentanyl, she experienced withdrawal symptoms, including vomiting, diarrhea, anxiety, and tremors in her arms and legs. Sarah wasn’t able to eat or sleep if she didn’t use the drug every few hours. Within a year, she was taking more than 100 pills a day.
Her boyfriend became addicted too. One night, he overdosed at Sarah’s house. “He got quiet and pale and then suddenly collapsed,” she remembers. Sarah woke up her father, who called an ambulance. Her younger brother performed cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR) on her boyfriend until the ambulance arrived. “I was sure he was going to die,” she says. Medics were able to revive him, and he recovered.
Today, after more than three years of fentanyl addiction, Sarah is drug free. Her former boyfriend is in prison for fentanyl possession. Sarah says the drug robbed her of time with her family and friends. “I missed out on a lot of experiences,” she says. Sarah barely graduated from high school and lost several jobs because of fentanyl. At one point she and her boyfriend were living in his car. Still, she’s just happy to have made it through alive. If she hadn’t gotten help, she says, “I don’t think I would have lived much longer.”